Wednesday, 13 April 2016

A Chat With Nat. #1

Hello, hi and welcome! 

So I thought I would introduce a new kind of post to my blog where I just chat (and probably ramble) about things that have bothered me in some type of way over the past month or so(may vary).

Think of it like I'm sharing a diary with you.  

I'm going to talk about different topics, whatever I feel like talking about and I hope you'll like it.. if not that's fine too. 

I sometimes feel like I have things on my chest that I can't get off and what better way than to write a blog post? 




OUTGROWING PEOPLE.

Although I am only 20 - soon to be 21, ahem - I have lived a very different life to some, without getting too deep I came from a broken family per say, my dad walked out when I was 5 and left my mum to take care of 2 children.

Anyway,(told you I would ramble), through my life I have met some amazing people, made great friends and experienced a lot with them. But looking back at memories and people in them I always find myself asking the questions of: where are they? I wonder what they're doing? I wonder if she's still in England? 

Is outgrowing people a bad thing? I have asked myself this question a lot. There's a reason certain people are in the past, and there's a reason they stay there. I couldn't imagine what my life would be like if every friend I had at school and every friend I had at college were still my close friends now. 

I have four amazing people who know me better than anyone else in the world. One friend I've known since I was five, we grew up together and still now to this day meet up when we can. We went from talking about Barbies to boys to makeup to college applications to university applications to rent and it all seems so surreal how much we've changed but our friendship hasn't. 

I never quite understood why some people stay in your life whereas others leave, sometimes it can be for a specific reason and you know you can't continue having them in your life but others just leave for no reason. You contact each other less and less and boom. Its your birthday and they don't wish you a happy birthday. Then the next thing is they're doing things in their life you didn't even know they had planned and they somewhat become just another face on Facebook who you scroll past. 

College was a weird time for me. I went to a college that none of my school friends went to, I basically had to make all new friends again and it made me feel sick. Although I don't mind making friends I worried that I wouldn't and that I'd spend three years of my course sat alone in the corner wishing I was anywhere but there.

But thankfully, that did not happen. 

My first year I made three amazing friends. We did everything together and I truly believed we'd be friends for life.

Then came the second year of college. My class was bigger and I made more friends and sort of, drifted from my three friends. They started doing stuff without me and I realised they were more interested in something that I wasn't. 

My third year of college was the best year. I was 18, I had a car and I made some amazing friends. My three friends all dropped out of my course by then so I kind of had to make new friends again as this course was harder and not many people stayed on to do it. I made two amazing friends who I even at one point called my best friends. We'd go on the craziest nights out, go on drives at stupid hours and have girly days with food and movies. 

But then came me getting my first nanny job in Switzerland. The second I moved there, I spoke with no one from college. They kind of just.. forgot about me. At first I was hurt, but I understand now. 

I moved on to find new friends and new experiences whereas everyone else from college were kind of just continuing the life I once lead. And that's okay, but I realised it wasn't my life anymore. 

The moral of the story is: it's a hundred percent okay to outgrow people.




BODY SHAMING.

We're in 2016 yet body shaming is still a thing. Putting people down is still a thing. 

I never really got what the point of body shaming is, I don't want to go into technicalities about bigger or smaller people, I think we should just let people live how they want and not comment on it. If they're a happy size 16 - let them be happy. If they're a happy size 6 - let them be. Bringing someone else down to make yourself feel better is never and will never be in style.

But being nice will.




SNAPCHAT DOG FILTER.

Now, if you have snapchat you'll know that the app has a plethora (God, swallow a dictionary Natalie??) of different filters ranging from face swap to having your mouth as eyes, turning from a devil to a angel and even being a crazy rabid bunny. 

But the one filter I cannot tolerate is the dog filter. Now, I don't hate what it looks like, or the fact the tongue sticks out when your open your mouth. I hate how it is used. 

Now I don't agree with people calling it a 'hoe filter' that's just a slur people use on social media to get more likes. I just don't get when someone lets say, is going to the shop they then decide to use the filter and caption it: 'off to the shop'. (Not based on a true story) (totally is). Now, I don't mind if you just post the selfie of the dog but to then caption it that you're going to the shop is completely pointless to me.

Let's not get started about people using it as their Twitter/Facebook photo, shall we?




SPRING IS HERE. NOBODY PANIC. 

It's the time of year where the clocks go forward, it's also that time of year where you say "Spring? It's April already? But it was just Christmas yesterday?!" 

If you're saying this too, you are not alone. 

Although I'm glad I can finally put away the thick coats and knee high boots I'm also not that excited about Spring. Spring is probably my least favourite season, even after winter - at least with winter you can wear a huge thick jumpers and leggings and call it an outfit but in Spring you can't do that. It's not hot enough for bare legs yet thick tights are uncomfortable. No jacket is good enough and don't get me started on what shoes to wear - boots? too hot, sandals? far too cold, pumps? maybe but when it gets darker it's then colder and you're back to square one again.

Spring, I'm happy you're here but you're not that welcome. I miss you Summer.




MADE IN CHELSEA IS BACK.

So, if you love MIC just as much as I do and have watched it since it started then you'll be happy that it's finally back gracing our tv screens.

I have watched it since the very first episode back in 2011 when everyone was asking 'will they, won't they?' with Caggie and Spencer, when Boulle was in it(MISS YOU BOULLE), Ollie and Gabriella dated(lol) and Lucy, Jamie and Louise weren't even in it(weird, right?!) 

I'm not a huge tv person but there are very few tv series that I watch and love; MIC being one of them.

I was a little disappointed to learn that Spencer wouldn't be in this series, he's been in it since the beginning and I guess I thought he would always be in it - even though he is a massive a-hole he's kind of like MIC royalty. 

I think Rosie, Binky, Ollie and Mark-Francis are the only originals left now, Jamie was introduced series 2 along with Victoria and Louise. Lucy came in series 4 which I cannot believe - I feel like they've been in it years. 

Anywaaaaay, I'm glad it's back - I'm excited to see how things turn out for Binky and JP(she needs to dump him), and I don't like the new Olivia girl. I did laugh when Sam called Tiff(his girlfriend) Toff who is his girl bestfriend - Freudian slip there mate?

LIKED: The fact it's back, how sassy Lucy is and the awkward exchange between Sam and Tiff.

DISLIKED: No Spenny or Proudlock(my bae). 



So that's all I have to talk about today but I'm sure there's going to be lots more! 

Thanks for reading!

Natalie xx

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